Ioften lie down to sleep wishing--yes, sometimes hoping not to wake up again; and the next morning I open my eyes, again see the sun, and feel wretched.

• 我常常躺在那儿希望--是的,有时甚至是渴望不要在醒来;第二天,我睁开眼睛又看到太阳时,心里异常难过。