Despite the rigidity of my A-student identity, I still felt stale and numb, dizzy and nauseous, my body floating in black and crimson.

• 虽然我在学校获得了优异的成绩，但我仍然感觉到内心的麻木、疲倦、迷乱甚至厌恶之感，我感觉到自己在黑暗中漂浮不定。